I seriously feel like a bottle about to explode... Things are bottled inside me for too long... I need an outlet... What I really wish now would be the endless and vast ocean in front of me... I'll shout at the top of my lungs... Letting out all the bottled stuff inside me.... I feel so shit and crappy ... Maybe Im always stuck as the supporting role ... Im never the lead... Even in my own life... I seem to live for others... Manipulated as though a puppet... I never had a chance to lead .... I always am being led... Even when I try to lead... I'm ignored... No one gives respect to a joker I presume... Maybe some of you are right ... Im a joker, thats why no one gives a damn as they treat whatever comes out from my mouth as a joke ... Guess thats what is deemed as a born loser ... Its so 'losery' ... I manage to make people laugh but its ironic that I myself don't laugh... This isn't what I ask for ... I really need an outlet... Counting back.. It seems that I have liked someone for a rather long time ... But the main point is "Whats the point ?" Its not the duration but instead the action taken to pursue what you really want ... I do say I want but I cant say I will do it... I really need a sudden burst of courage to help me... But even if I do take an action... I'll most likely get rejected ... For the uglies do not deserve a 2nd look.. Saddened by this fact
